So What Now?

It has been quite some time since I last posted on here, and my apologies for those who read and want to keep updated. Its been an interesting time transitioning back into life in North America for sure. There is such a stark contrast between life in Haiti and life in the States, as I imagine, you can understand.

If I’m honest, in many ways it’s been nice to be back. Haiti was a sacrifice for sure. It was tough, it wasn’t fun all the time. I missed my family and friends. So being back in the states with all this luxury around isn’t all that bad.. but there are parts that I miss. There are people I left behind in Haiti that are so precious to me. There are beautiful customs and a vibrant culture that I’d much rather live in. There is an ease of spiritual focus and access to God that is hard to find in the States.

But, like all things, my time in Haiti has come to an end and I am being called to other things. Currently I don’t know what I’ll be doing or where or with who. All I know is that God is faithful and he will provide for me. I had an interview last week for a position at a church up in Parsippany called Liquid Church and am waiting to hear back about whether or not they want me to come and interview again. Please keep that in your prayers for me! I would love to work at Liquid; I went up there the first Sunday I was back to check it out and it’s pretty awesome. I like the way they do things and they are reaching so many in the Parsippany area and all around NJ. I have sent my resume out to other organizations and haven’t heard anything back as of yet. I also am looking around for a reliable car to buy but can’t buy it until I know that I’ll have a job or at least some income, so that’s been an annoyance.

God is calling me to serve where I’m at as I wait. I have been spending time with Seth’s little ones and helping mom out several days a week which is challenging but rewarding. It’s nice to be in their lives so much since I really wasn’t that much for the past two years. They constantly remind me of how I act with God. They are rowdy and hurt themselves, they don’t want to listen and often say “no way!” This is exactly how I act with God many times. There are many things that I don’t want to do and when he calls me I either try to ignore him or just say no. Sounds kinda like Jonah eh? Anyway, it’s been a blessing to be home. It’s also been great to spend time with my marassa, Adam. Twins being two years apart is less than ideal but we made it work. I’m spending a few days a week at his house hanging out and making up for lost time with him 🙂

Other than that, not much else has been going on. I was just thinking about how it’s already been over a month and I don’t have a job or any semblance of what my life will look like in 3 years.. or 3 months. It’s an exercise in faith for sure and when I take my eyes off of God and his promises it gets pretty sad pretty quick so I’m trying to keep my eyes focused on him.

Please continue to pray for me: that will be my plea every time I write one of these. We can never have too much prayer put into something! I am continuing to pray that God will give me grace to lay down my will unto his so that I am not upset with whatever he chooses for me. I’m also continuing to pray that he either changes the desires of my heart or that he gives me those desires.

“…For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.” Matt. 6:32-34

Be blessed

Ben

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