Good morning/afternoon/whenever you are reading this! It Is Sunday and I am waiting for Stone Hill’s live stream to come up and I’ve wanted to post for a couple days but didn’t know what to post about until this morning. I’d like to take time on this beautiful Sunday morning to brag about my God! I’ve been talking about the future in many of my recent posts so let’s take some time to focus on the past and what God has done in my life.
*gulps coffee* …can’t get away from this stuff…
So this whole thought process isn’t new to me; what God has done in my life over the past 5 years or so, it was just recently impressed on me afresh by a good friend and brother Mike. I have been asking people I know about possible job openings in facilities for the fall in order to hopefully set something up before I get back home or within the first couple months at most. Mike is involved with Liquid church in north Jersey and as some of you might know, they have many different campuses and are still growing at a rapid rate so I thought to myself, “They must have job openings in janitorial services cus they have so many buildings, lemme ask Mike.” WELL he gave me what I call a “Bobby Tunstall” response… A BT response is simultaneously full of wisdom and challenge. As you may guess, I don’t really like these kind of responses/questions/etc.. because they make me uncomfortable and usually involve something that I don’t want to do.. Mike’s response was “well we can talk about it but why do you want to do janitorial services when you’ve had two years of leadership training in Haiti?” I was like (in my head) COME ON really? Just let yer boy live his life! But if I’m honest, he is right.
This leads me to the topic of today’s blog. Over the past, I’d say, 4 or 5 years, God has changed me exponentially. Ask anyone who has known me well for more than 5 years and they can tell you some of what he has changed. My mom and dad have had front seats along with my brother Adam to the movie that has been my adult life. My good friends Nada, Scott and Jericho could also attest to how God has changed me. In fact, Nada and I were just talking the other day about how I used to be really mean back in the day and how my anger issues permeated areas of my life. Bobby Tunstall could also tell stories about what I used to be before he asked me to be a youth leader (and during that time as well). I could go on and on about this but let’s get to the meat of the subject; what God’s actually done.
Let me paint a picture for you of who I was before a couple years ago. I was the guy who put a young girl in the hospital because I couldn’t control my anger. I was the guy who used to look at porn daily because I couldn’t control my desires. I was the guy who would shy away from any responsibility because I didn’t want the pressure. I was self-serving and immature in many ways. I used to be a sheep; I never wanted to be a leader. BUT let’s not give power to past sins by focusing on them. THERE HAS BEEN CHANGE! *insert hallelujah hands emoji* By the GRACE of my God simply and exclusively I have been molded into a leader. I have been able to get a better handle on my anger and lust. I have taken responsibilities that I never thought I ever would. God has taken this lump of clay and fashioned it to his liking and his purpose; like I’ve said many times before and every time I share my testimony, I never wanted to or thought I would be living and serving in Haiti. I have come to enjoy who God has pushed and pulled and broken and restored me to be. I still don’t like how he does it (and maybe never will) but I have come to enjoy the end result of every opportunity he places in my lap and I begrudgingly take.
All this to say, I am far from perfect. There is much that still needs to be changed. I am still desperately in need of grace and forgiveness each and every day! But I wanted to just boast in my God for a little bit!
To tie this all in, I don’t yet know what God has for my future but I am starting to think it might not be janitorial services when I get back (still don’t like the idea of that though..). But I have come this far by his grace and leading to know that HE holds all the cards. He’s the one that makes the plans that always succeed and always go according to his will. I’m just here thinking about what’s next and he’s sitting up there saying “I got this Ben Henrie.. don’t you worry.”
I’m excited to see what he decides to do with me when I’m done in Haiti. His will is far greater than mine, as are his ways!
Have a blessed Sunday all,