Not only does my job require me to work with groups but I enjoy working them for many reasons. Groups are an interesting environment and no two are ever the same, even if the same ones come back year after year. When you know a group, it is easier to guess how the week will go but there is no real knowing what’s going to happen until the week comes and the work starts. Most groups are great to work with and over the past year plus I have had the honor to work with many great teams/individuals. I have learned from people who have come and I have also given of my knowledge and insight. It has been a mutual sharing of faith for many of the individuals that have sacrificed their time/money to come down for a week or ten days. I have found that it’s the individuals that make the experience sometimes even more than the work itself; after all, that’s what FFP is all about – making relationships that last a lifetime.
Aside from the personal aspect of why I enjoy working with groups, there is the work itself. Whether it be medical or construction, I believe in the work that FFP is doing both in Haiti and the Dominican Republic. The way that this organization is run is different than many other NGOs on many levels. The leadership is some of the best I’ve ever seen as well as having dedicated and knowledgeable staff alongside them. Both medical and construction work are so important to the advancement of both Haiti and the Kingdom. I am heavily involved in each team’s work for the week as I am always on site working alongside them. This is one of the best parts of the job as I get to see first hand the progress that comes to a community when we return time and time again with different groups. Actually seeing the work of God played out is an amazing and humbling experience. To be counted as one who is worthy of doing this kind of work is ever beyond me; I don’t understand how a guy like me would be used by God in this way. Who am I that God would be mindful of me?
Which brings me to the point of this blog. It is difficult to work groups, especially construction groups. The amount of energy that each day takes is ridiculous! Both physically and mentally, working groups is exhausting. I have become more aware of my weaknesses and how they play into temptations as I have gotten older and tiredness is one of the biggest. The enemy knows what will have the best percentage of working and those are the times/situations where he slides in and tries to break us of our worship of God. Simply put, it is harder to stay pure when working a group. The mass fatigue coupled with my lack of discipline makes for a hard battle. There are many things I know I need to and am currently working on and as many of you know, spiritual disciplines is one of them. Disciplines are the first to go out the window when I am tired. I won’t filter what I put before my eyes or what I listen to or say as much as when I am well rested and feeling strong. It’s interesting how you can be doing something totally for God but also at the same time be more tempted than ever. The Devil knows whats up and doesn’t want us to succeed in our work for the Kingdom! I have felt this more here than at any other point in my life. Today I am thankful for a merciful Savior who floods me with grace and forgiveness and puts up with my trash. I ask that you pray for strength both physically but more importantly spiritually so that I can extinguish all the flaming darts of the Evil One with the shield that is faith.
Please partner with me in prayer for my continued sanctification and especially in the area of lust and purity. I long for the day when I no longer have to face these temptations because I will be in Paradise with the Father, perfect and holy. But until then, it’ll be a battle. I know that it could be hard to find someone to fight against this alongside me but I am praying that that someone comes! In the meantime, I have all of you who faithfully pray for me! I am so thankful for the overwhelming support I have received while in Haiti. Thank you again and again